Feeling sentimental today

It has been a while since I have blogged, but now that I have some quiet time to think, I will start writing again.
Yes, quiet time! It is hitting me pretty hard today that I am the mom of a KINDERGARTENER, 1st grader and 6th grader. Yes, my oldest child is in Middle School! I know I shouldn't be, but I'm really emotional today. I guess it's just the fact that my last child is in school. I guess from the birth of my daughter nearly 5 years ago until now the reality of no more children really hit me this morning for the first time. No more buddies to keep me company during the day. Sigh!
To be honest here, I've been struggling with some very strong emotional stuff the past few weeks and I've been at my wits end literally. I lost perspective on my blessings. See my beautiful family below? They are truly gifts from God (as our middle son Nate's name means) I was fed up with the kids fighting, my house always being a mess and many other things. I was to the breaking point this week, when I came across some old journals and other things that brought to mind the reality of how miraculous my relationship with my dear husband and I came to be. He came into my life just a week after I literally screamed out to God to send me a man I could love.
Tim has been such a rock to me in hard times and been a wonderful father to my children. Why he has put up with this crazy, grouchy mess the past 12 years, I'll never be able to figure out. I'm so thankful for him and my 3 children here on earth and my sweet Gabrielle in heaven.
So, here I enter the era of all 3 children in school and on the verge of turning 40! I will take this quiet time and reflect on how wonderful my life really is and thank God for it all!

Tim my wonderful husband, Elijah, my middle schooler, Anna my Kindergarten princess and Nate the Great 1st grade reader! Green Lakes State Park August 2009 (a subject for another day what a beautiful place!)

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