God's Timing is Best
2013 has been a very challenging year. It was a year of patience testing and a call to fully rely on God!!!!
I wrote the following during one of those times, it was at the beginning of my search for some answers for some upper abdominal pain that started in August. Since this entry, I’ve got my diagnosis, but it expresses my feelings about having a chronic illness.
(8/22/13 at a local hospital having an upper GI series... having the first of the 5 tests)
The past few weeks have been a test of patience!!! I have been dealing with a stomach issue at the moment of this initial writing is in the process of being diagnosed.
I’ve dealt with pain, nausea, bloating and other digestive yuckiness. I’ve just felt just plain awful!
This latest health crisis has brought to reality what my doctors have been telling me for years…take care of myself not only for me but for my family’s sake.
I’ve been in denial for over 19 years thinking my diabetes isn’t taking a toll on my body. It has and not I’m forced to change. That’s not a totally bad thing really. Now I need to stick to my resolve what I start to feel better or not to get discouraged when things are not getting better. In short…dealing with what comes to me.
My family has been very supportive through all of this (and the months beyond as I look back) my poor husband has listened to my worries. He keeps telling me not to thing about it too much. It is hard not to when I am feeling icky.
I feel sorry for my mom having to hear me sound so sick.8/22/13 (at I wish my parents lived closer.
I have dealt with my parents’ illnesses for many years, especially during the past few months with my Dad being so sick and having surgery in May. It has been scary to see him so sick. It is also honestly scary to be on the other side of things too. I know with God’s help, my family’s support and some wonderful doctors’ help, I will get through whatever comes my way.
Since this August morning, I had other tests to rule out hernias and other structural issues. My colonoscopy done in October showed two pre-cancerous polyps. I feel if I had the Gastric Emptying test first I would not have had the colonoscopy, and I would have probably waited at least six more years to have one. I could have had cancer by then,) so despite my frustration I know God’s timing is best.
On December 19, I was officially diagnosed with a condition called Gastroparesis. The nerve in my stomach is damaged so the stomach doesn’t empty quickly. My primary dr. suspected it in August.
God has got my family through some other major stresses (my Dad’s health crisis this spring and my Grandma’s death and car problems). My pastor reminded us on New Years Eve in Laminations 3 about God’s Faithfulness being new every day.
Nate, my 11 year old asked me why my pastor would talk about that. I told Nate it’s that God is faithful in both the good times and the bad. What a great reminder!
I wrote the following during one of those times, it was at the beginning of my search for some answers for some upper abdominal pain that started in August. Since this entry, I’ve got my diagnosis, but it expresses my feelings about having a chronic illness.
(8/22/13 at a local hospital having an upper GI series... having the first of the 5 tests)
The past few weeks have been a test of patience!!! I have been dealing with a stomach issue at the moment of this initial writing is in the process of being diagnosed.
I’ve dealt with pain, nausea, bloating and other digestive yuckiness. I’ve just felt just plain awful!
This latest health crisis has brought to reality what my doctors have been telling me for years…take care of myself not only for me but for my family’s sake.
I’ve been in denial for over 19 years thinking my diabetes isn’t taking a toll on my body. It has and not I’m forced to change. That’s not a totally bad thing really. Now I need to stick to my resolve what I start to feel better or not to get discouraged when things are not getting better. In short…dealing with what comes to me.
My family has been very supportive through all of this (and the months beyond as I look back) my poor husband has listened to my worries. He keeps telling me not to thing about it too much. It is hard not to when I am feeling icky.
I feel sorry for my mom having to hear me sound so sick.8/22/13 (at I wish my parents lived closer.
I have dealt with my parents’ illnesses for many years, especially during the past few months with my Dad being so sick and having surgery in May. It has been scary to see him so sick. It is also honestly scary to be on the other side of things too. I know with God’s help, my family’s support and some wonderful doctors’ help, I will get through whatever comes my way.
Since this August morning, I had other tests to rule out hernias and other structural issues. My colonoscopy done in October showed two pre-cancerous polyps. I feel if I had the Gastric Emptying test first I would not have had the colonoscopy, and I would have probably waited at least six more years to have one. I could have had cancer by then,) so despite my frustration I know God’s timing is best.
On December 19, I was officially diagnosed with a condition called Gastroparesis. The nerve in my stomach is damaged so the stomach doesn’t empty quickly. My primary dr. suspected it in August.
God has got my family through some other major stresses (my Dad’s health crisis this spring and my Grandma’s death and car problems). My pastor reminded us on New Years Eve in Laminations 3 about God’s Faithfulness being new every day.
Nate, my 11 year old asked me why my pastor would talk about that. I told Nate it’s that God is faithful in both the good times and the bad. What a great reminder!
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