Under His Wings

January 25, 2018, proved to be one of the most anxious days of my motherhood.  My firstborn child, now nineteen.  left  for a college nearly three hours away.  This day had been postponed for a school year and a half, but that moment Elijah walked out of our front door  devastated  me.   I am a proud mama!  Elijah has thought out his college decisions very carefully, down to the finances.  He inherited his father's talent for looking and finding deals.  He chose his degree with the desire to help others.  That makes me so happy!   I still honestly worry about him being out on his own for the first time so far away from home.  Sometimes worry makes my mind wander to silly what ifs, but I do have to remind myself of Philippians 4:6.  Some translations say do not be anxious for ANYTHING!!!  I need to leave Elijah and everyone else close to me in God's hands.  

Every Sunday night for a while when I attended Faith Baptist Church in Cortland NY during my college years, we sang the song ' Tis So Sweet to Trust in Jesus .  Every time I hear that song, I think of those days now over 25 years ago. It makes me somewhat sad thinking back at that time in my life when I really wasn't trusting God fully to work in my life. I worked hard to pursue the television career I dreamed about for a long time. I felt God leading me in that.  Many opportunities came my way in ways only God could have orchestrated, but other things in my life, even today I don't fully put in God's hands.  Fear and doubt can take over sometimes. I do love to see how God works in my life whether I trust Him or not. I love how songs remind me about truths of God's love and patience.  This song written by William Kirkpatrick and Louisa Stead is no exception.